I have come to such a huge realization. Before I came to Finland, I expected to come here and learn MORE about volleyball. How the environment and the culture of the sport has evolved and explore new ideas of what Volleyball had to offer. So I said yes. I said YES to play with Kuusamo Pölkky Volleyball team. After being here for almost five months I have learned so much more about MYSELF than anything. My hobbies, insecurities, desires, hair care, skin care and much more. Mostly I have discovered more about the path that God has for me. I don’t believe he brought me here just to play volleyball, he brought me to Finland to learn the true meaning of intimacy, faith, direction, and self-control. While being here I have realized that I have suppressed preexisting trauma that has been blocking clarity of a lot of situations. The biggest test for me here is myself. How do I get more of my emotions and thoughts under control? I will admit the Devil has tried to put obstacles in my way and I cant blame the obstacles anymore because they are being used to promote maturity and self-discipline. The stress from the past should not be able to control me and today I admit: I WILL NOT let it. By being mindful of myself and my thoughts I can prepare myself for the next step God has for me.
So I encourage you to think deeper. Think more intimately about the positives and negative situations and thoughts in your life. Are the negative things really negative or do they just appear to be negative because that is what you have associated it with your whole life? You can change that. It is in our nature as humans to worry. We also tend to worry more about other people than ourselves. (Having children of your own is different) Worried about what they think of us, and what they are doing, and why they don’t like us , and why they disagree with our ideas. The problem isn’t them, its us. WE are so overwhelmed with what other people do and think that we allow them to validate who we are. Some times people can come off as aggressive or hostile, but YOU can control YOUR own perspective. You can choose not to see them as hostile or aggressive , but as someone who is just displacing their frustration, lonely, confused, or just a call for help. Our reactions to a lot of things says a lot about our personalities than we realize. When you are at peace with and are persistent on becoming a better version of yourself, you learn hat there will be things to challenge you or test you to go back to the person you used to be but, that doesn’t have to be the case. It is absolutely normal for things to feel like they get harder the more progress you make.
When people are angry what do they do? They speak their truth through honestly and frustration. The reaction you get from people is not always you or your fault.
I challenge you to think DEEPER before you act and react. That doesn’t mean try to understand everyone and why they do what they do. It means focus more on you and your choices. It is and opportunity to learn from people on their good days and their bad days. ♥️
Comments